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jakestephens:

my latest song.  good shit.

told myself

I told myself that I would be okay
I took my pills almost every day
but the pain keeps on tumbling down
and my heart keeps wondering how
to breathe

I took my heart and I threw it away
I told myself it was all a game
a game to play I thought I could win
another way to let it all end
the pain

I told myself that I would be okay
took my pills every other day
and the rain keeps tumbling down
and it’s all just a joke somehow
to live

i took it all but only so long
I wrote it down, another fucking song
I song it while the world looked away
I drank the blood and I hid it away 
again

now is the moment, now is the fear
with all I’ve chosen, it’s all come clear
that life is absurdity and we are the joke
unless we accept that then we’ll never know
the truth of existence is ours to control
life is absurdity and we are the joke

I told myself that it would be okay
I took my pills and I threw them away
and the pain keeps on tumbling down
and the world keeps on mumbling how
to be

I took the time to sing what I say
but all these words can’t keep the wolves at bay
our actions speak much louder than words
we speak in tongues that they’ve never heard
the pain

now is the moment, now is the fear
with all I’ve chosen, it’s all come clear
that life is absurdity and we are the joke
unless we accept that then we’ll never know
the truth of existence is ours to control
life is absurdity and we are the joke
unless we are laughing, then we have no hope
life is absurdity and we are the joke

-jakeStephens, 05.10.2012

jakestephens:

told myself, by jakeStephens

a song sketch.  liking it

Day 158. updated at last, mini-monster #03…

MONSTER update/catch-up post 02…

Okay, so I’ve not posted in a long while.  I’ve continued the project, I’ve just been hella busy…two jobs, directing a play, in a relationship, and starting school, all while trying to make music and art and such.  Yes, playing Skyrim HAS NOT helped, but, regardless, it’s been a nice distraction.

So here’s a couple of monster posts of all of this stuff and hopefully I can keep up on it a bit better in the months to come….

130. foodcrap

137. wishingMyloveaway

song sketch, recorded with my loop pedal.

134. milestrane

inspired by this post: http://iamapatientboy.tumblr.com/post/15021554808

133. plantForms

132. newwheels

131. justAsketch

playing with my new powered speaker setup (yay). played a little thing. recorded it on, of all things, my loopstation. creative solution, ftw. did a quick overtdub. spit it out and posted it here. qfed.

129. darknessWithin

128. xmas2me

127. abrstractdistractions

126. kettleLines